Epik High - Love Love Love

this post is mostly about guys.
i Really hate myself for this.
i'D always be the kind of girls who say i wouldn't do this kinda crap.
but i Guess i Was wrong. so very wrong.
i Have no clue why this happened to me.
stupid genders.

*sigh* aish...
anyways.

i'M glad that me and hyun gu are getting our friendship back.
we're somewhat more nice to each other.and we talk too.
i Guess that's good for me.
hyun gu said that he thinks jarrod likes me again.
because he all nice to me and everything,
to other girls too, but mostly me and especially me.
is hyun gu right?
well i Guess that explains that he never liked me.
wow what a heart break for me.
but whatever.
as much as i like him.he won't give a shit.
and hyun gu said that all the guys that like me now,
don't like me.
he said it was because i always change liking guys,
or always reject everyone.
well wth am i supposed to do?
no boy out there is worth crying for.
except for one, that will one day be my love.
PFSHSHSSH i Sound like a freakin "ROMANTIC"
crraaappp.
but i Feel guilty right now.
i keep getting close to yiping.
yiping is sorta close friend of mine.
well he's closer to me than dorcas.
yiping is like dorcas' crush.
that's her territory, right?
this is what i HATE.
i Almost always get close to boys and end up liking them.
i Don't want to end up liking yiping, not that he's a great guy and everything.
ugh.what is wrong with me?
but i Think it's too late for this.
my feelings for yiping have probably changed.
could it be that i Like him more than "friends" now?
well this is bullshit.
i Have to seriously stop.
i Need too.
we're going to Charlse H. Hulse tomorrow.
me,yiping,maybe ivon,bryan,maybe dorcas, and mahethan.
i See myelf as a filthy whore.
i Don't think i'M the only one who sees it.
i Think it's my "friends" too.
now there's one last boy i need to talk about.
his name is naufal,
and i Absolutely think i'M in love with him.
but what do i know? i'M only 13 years old.
he's the most amazing guy to me.
especially because of his intrest.they're unique and different.
he's unlike other boys.and he's not afraid to be different.
but sadly he's turning into this emo kid.
i Love emo.i Used to be emo at one point.
it's just that he'll probably never understand me.
or how i Feel for him.
that's just too bad naufal.
but i will never give up on you.
i'LL keep it my own quiet thing.

well that's it.
yes i'M known as a boy crazy person you could say?