good days like these.

aahh....
today was an awesome day.
everything was good with Jarrod,
except i didn't ask him, i was talking with friends....-___-
epic FAIL.
but watever....everything seems to be going good,
we hug a lot now. so i'M okay and happy.

but now i'M falling deeply for Safwan.
today he kept looking at me in class,
i just looked back with a blank look on my face.
during drama class i came in to get my pencil case and give Jane one of the icebreakers,
then Safwan was like "can i have one? i'M nice."
i replied "since when? you're never nice!"
then he said "yes i am! i give you hugs everyday!" (but yes safwan please hug me.)
i'M like "no you don't!",
then told him "FINE! since i'M NICE."
then he said thank you and smiled ever so sweetly...or maybe it was just me?
owh safwan, how your smile absolutely kills me.
At the end of the day when we were outside, he was talking to garth,
so i stood near them since i was waiting for jarrod and hyun gu,
safwan took the playdough and put it down my shirt,
it took me like forever to take it out but they all just waited for me there.
surprisingly safwan didn't talk to any of the 8th grade girls with us.
anyways sidik asked me for an ice breaker and then safwan says
" oh she doesn't have any left, she gave the last one to me " and then winked.
i melted inside, but was back on my feet pretty fast.
then i just decided to give sidik one since was begging me.
then everyone started to crowd me, and then Jarrod just grabbed it from my hand,
then gave it back to me after he took one.
then i gave everyone one, and there were two left,
so i offered safwan and he was like "are you serious?"
and then i just nodded and smiled.
safwan joined our group to walk home,
but he was next to me the whole time, i absolutely loved that.
he kept talking to me,
until he parted at the traffic light.
he said bye Nadhirah
and then did that handshake thing again with me.
so yeah....i had a great end of the day.
my heart was beating fast because of him, he's just too *i don't have the word to describe him*


aaahh...i love that boy.
i had another day dream about him today:

we were walking home in a big group,
i was afraid that a certain unpleasant someone was going to show up,
our paths split up,
i have no choice but to walk alone,
unless i walk with, the ever so charming safwan.
i am afraid to approach him. he's a grade higher than me.
but i'D rather walk with him than to meet up with an awfully unpleasant someone.
so i go up to safwan and ask him if can walk along with him,
and he just looks at me, "you don't have to ask me, just walk."
i smile softly, too afraid of what he'll think of me.
we both walk, but we're alone...i love it.
he's just so sweet, walking in his beautiful way that he is.
i'M ever so calm with him, i feel safe being around him,
but then Lokman comes up to me and wraps his arm arounf my shoulder,
too tight, i feel uneasy and not comfortable right now.
i was hoping all day that i wouldn't see that unpleasant sight.
but no, now it is too late.
Lokman looks at me like i'M a piece of meat.
he says "hi sweety, coming wiht me right?"
i scream at him "let me go!!" then i slap him,
i get behind safwan holding on to his back afraid of what's going to happen next.
safwan could see the fear in my eyes,
he get's in Lokman's face and tells him "leave her alone or i'LL seriously hurt you"
Lokman just laughs and tries to come near me,
before he can even make a step near me,
safwan pushes him off the ground,
he picks me and then starts to run,
this was all happening too fast, i was scared that safwan would drop me,
and i wouldn't be able to run away in time,
scared that Lokman would catch up to us,
scared that safwan might let me down and i would be able to run away,
but he would stay and get hurt, i don't him to get hurt.
no safwan please don't.
Lokman is still down but we think we're in safe distance, we don't see him.
i tell safwan to let go of me,
then i tell him to run with me just in case,
i grab his hand and we're both running.
and we are safe, most deffinately safe....
he looks down at me "walk with me tomorrow okay? i'LL be here for you."
and he smiled at me really sweetly.
those words, it came from his mouth. what does this mean?
that he cares about me? "thank you safwan"
he walked me home, just to be sure, at my doorstep,
he looks down on me again, then kisses me on my forehead.
bye he whispers in my ear. and i just stood there, frozen.