i don't get this...i'M confused.
i thought me and Jarrod were back together.
i Guess not. why?
well first off he doesn't even say hi to me during recess.
and he doesn't really look at me or pay atention to me.
what did i say or do?
he asked me weather i was serious about the break up last time.
and i said yes i was because well i needed to focus on my studies.
maybe he thought that meant break up forever?
i said to him the day before yesterday when he asked me to the dance,
i said yes, and i said i really missed him.
well it's true i did miss him.
and now the bad thing is...
i think i really am falling for safwan.
aish.this is bad.
he talks to me more often now, and jokes around with me.
i could just be the little sister he never wanted?
urgh.....i dunno what to think anymore.
yiping said he fixed this,
so i'M gonna ask him to ask jarrod if i did something wrong.

i sorta got upset today at the end of school.
not about jarrod though,
about safwan...
this girl called ellie (i knoe because of facebook),
comes and reconnects with him,
and while walking back she goes on his back for a piggy back ride.
that made me angry, upset.
i'D never be able to do that.
i'LL always be a year younger than him.
there's nothing i can do now.
actually all i can do is day dream about him.

w.e
owh yeah...
Mahethan's been acting kinda pissed.
i honestly thinks he likes me and is upset that i accpeted jarrod's invation ot the dance.
cuz he was like "you going with anyone to the dance?"
i answered yea, and he was like shit.
but he's so cool about it.
He was like yea i really did want that hug for 10 seconds...
mahethan's a great guy...don't want to see him get hurt.


aish.so confused on what to do rite now.
w/e i hate boys.

-off to daydream~~