so guilty but damn happy.

yea i think it's pretty clear that Jarrod has no intrest in me whatsoever.
well that's just too bad for me. oh well.
anyways.
i figured out who mahethan liked.
and guess what? i was right.
he did like me.crap.i feel like killing myself right now.
but not really because of some other two guys.
mahethan is a great guy but he tried to freakin rape me during recess -___-
and yiping kicked me in the ass.
(but that's only cuz i hitt them on the ass)
and now i have to figure out who Yiping likes.
i didn't knoe he liked anyone....
mahethan said that it was hard to tell her that he likes her.
so hmm....i was thinking of Julia,
and before i even said it, mahethan knew i was thinking her.
gawsh he likes me so much that he knoew what i'M thinking....lol =P
but i think i have another idea on who it is.
i think it's ai-lin. hmm. or maybe even linda?
well i think it's ai-lin because ...well yea.

okie anyways,
in the morning before i went to school
i went online for a while.
and Naufal was online!
yay i was so happy.
we talked, and we chatted on facebook,
putting comments on Yiping's status.
it was a great morning.
and i was like, i gtg make a card for my friend's birthday,
and he was like, no don't!
and i asked him why not??
he said, because you'll die of something mysterious.
lol Naufal was random in the morning, but at times he was really emo.
and at one point he was like "hi my name is mr.sunshine, nice to meet you"
and i was like "hi i'M ms.too messed up to care"
then he was like "noooo, your ms. lala. wait no MRS.lala"
i asked him who mr.lala was and he said yiping -___-
no way is he mr.lala.
naufaul said, fine he's mr.yipeee!
lol that naufal of mine.
i love him.really.

another reason i was happy today is because of safwan.
in the morning at school when i was near the basketball nets,
safwan came up behind me and took my hoodie and just put it over my face/head.
then i just came up and slpped him on the head.
and during first break, in the class he came to play cards with scott and everyone,
behind my desk so i turned around and watched their game, and yea we started talking,
then he just started to cheat like crazy.lol it was a funny game.
after that during french the stupid french teacher made me change computers,
for no stupid reason.what an idiot.
i had a choice to sit either next to Safwan or Garth,
i sat next to Garth...play it safe.
but when we were waiting outside of science class,
safwan went on about how much of a bitch the french teacher was.
and then he came up to me and was like
"and what she did to nadhirah was harsh, nadhirah if i was you, i would've slapped her right in the face"
thnx safwan, thnx for standing up for me.
during science class when mrs.somerville was out of the room for a while,
and safwan wasn't doing anything, so i told him to go do some work.
then he came up to me like angry, and Yabo was like "she's not afraid of you"
and safwan said he wasn't trying to be.
i was like go do some work, now go sit down and do some work quietly.
then mrs.somerville came back so safwan went back to sit down,
and then it started to rain and he was like aww dammit,
i went like "yay now you have to walk in the rain"
and he was like "no! you have to gimme a ride home!"
i was like no wayy, but in my head i was really like.....anyday anytime.
and at the end of school while going outside i just getting puching him to the wall on purpose,
then he was like "what're you doing? trying to hug me?"
i was like no! then just slammed him to the wall and kept doing it until we were outside.
but yes safwan i would like a hug, a really warm one.
a hug that would make me feel safe in your arms.
aish, i really am falling for you.

owh yeah, just talked to Yiping in a convo,
i guessed who he like,
i told him that i thought is was ai-lin,
and i was rite. wow i'M good at this lol.

okay anways enough of that,
i should be over Hyun Gu,
and i tell people that i hate him, and people believe me,
but deep down, way down,
i can't let go of him.
i just don't knoe why.

i'LL write more later, maybe about my day dreams of safwan or hyun gu?
who knoes really, what i'M going to do..